Just as a warm up for what may be some furious blogging to come (I'm storing it all up, stuff to get out there, you know) I'll just post a quote from a lengthy profile on a dating site.  I enjoyed reading her profile, not what you'd expect, not all 'I'm bubbly, like eating out and staying in, going to pubs and eating kebabs'...blah, blah, blah, yawn!!!  This bit made me chuckle, a good way of putting a truth.

"When they're gone you'll have nothing. Having the love of your life break up with you and say, we can still be friends, is like your dog dying and your mum saying you can still keep

I broke a trust with my wife....I lied to her.  I did not at anytime be unfaithful to her.  She was and is my only one love.  But about two years ago when this happened, our daughter left for university.  We started moving apart.  I did not give her the attention she needed.  She however reconnected with friends from the past (at least two) on line through facebook.

She developed relationships with them once again.  In all this time she thought I guess from my inattention to her,that I was having an affair with someone at my place of work....completetly missplaced...no way.  I love her too

Had a bad night last night, found myself dreaming about her (nothing specific, just her in my dreams!). i awoke at 0310 and then that was it for the night! damn!

I dont understand her sometimes, since seperating in January we have only seen each other at work Mon-Fri. until recently (when i put a stop to it) she would make a point of finding me at the end of the working day to kiss and hug me goodbye for the night!

I put a stop to this a few weeks ago because i felt it was giving me a mixed message and i have to move on.

Last Friday, we had to work closely together on a project and i found that