I got a phone call at 3am after my daughter's birthday party. It was my husband, drunk, phoning from his office. He kept insisting that there was something very important he had to tell me but couldn't because of our impending divorce; that if I emailed him five examples of why I've been a bad wife then he could divulge this very important information.

He must think I'm really stupid.

His phone calls continued until 6am. I was exhausted after my daughter's birthday, I had coped with the whole party alone because he had decided to ditch us and go clubbing in London, and he had the audacity to

I was going to say nothing to report a blog with nothing to add.But on reflection:

My daughter tonight told me that my wife had been last night on the wiki site .I said was she sure?She replied it was my icon picture that she had seen....Quietly I asked my wife if she had been on here? She went crazy shouting at my daughter and me,as if she had sided with the devil.I feel my wife did not get on wiki. But it is strange behaviour from my daughter who is 9 1/2 years old to have told such a lie.

The word DESERVE keeps popping up in my thoughts and conversations.It seems the word is the measure of

Havent seen him for a week now, no contact apart from a few texts. He was meant to phone the next night but didn't bother. Can't understand how he could change this much. Seeing him again my mood crashed. Had most of week off work as am using up annual leave days before they run out at start of April but wasn't really a good thing as it gave me the oppertunity to slob about the house dwelling on things. Am going to get solicitor to send out my divorce letter tomorrow. Why am I feeling scared of his reaction on recieving it when he so obviously disregards my feelings entirely? My one dread