Its beena while, just read my last post, nearly two years ago, cant belive it. Anyhow proposed last feb in copenhagen. We married last october. I never would have believed I could meet such a woman. I am truly happy. I do believe in Karma, it has to be, where there is bad stuff dealt, stay strong be a good person and one day you will be rewarded. She is taking me to africa in the summer for honeymoon, I could not have wished for my life as it is now, however as it was, I was dreading it, especially when the kids had gone, what a boring one sided life it would have been. I am so lucky

So, its been over a year since I last blogged, posted, chated on wiki, and although I do peek in most months, I havent felt the need to write for a long time. During that last year, I have tried to mellow a little with regard to X and how he treats DD. (shes now 8yrs old). I try to overlook lots of little things I got too hung up over and have stopped communicating it back to him, as the response was lies or batting it back to me. Also during this time for over a month, he changed the contact by his own request from one night per week to every other weekend. This was initially due to

I survived New Years Eve spending it with close friends, I survived the 1st Jan mainly spending it in bed but seeing friends in the evening and congratulating myself on having survived the festive season in better shape than I ever could have imagined 3 months ago when the bomb dropped. Today I am back at work and in pieces luckily there are only a few people in and I'm being left alone to sit at my desk and cry. I thought I'd start a blog to encourage me to be positive, I won't dare to write a constant stream of self pity so I will have to make an effort. I don't have any doubt that I will