Another wasted morning. Today should have been so constructive in agreeing arrangements for children and housing.

stbx has now gone back on previous agreement about child arrangements. Now insisting that I can only have every other weekend. I have bent over back wards to help this woman and now she is cutting me off from my own children.

When it came to house arrangements she announced that she hadn't thought about it and let the judge decide what is best. Both the mediator and I try to explain that it doesn't work like that and it will cost a fortune.

She won't budge and expects me to

Got a call from sol yesterday asking me to make an appt to see him. Got a cancellation for 10.00 this am-either that or next Fri!! Shuffled things around at work + grabbed the 10.00 slot. Took the morning off work. Got up late + made breakfast for my daughter who is staying with me for a few nights, before she set off for work. When she left, I went upstairs to open my bedroom curtains. Surprise surprise, b*****ds car was pulling up outside our house-he obviously saw my car in the drive, + he drove off-ha me thinks, foiled that little plan.

What a shambles at the sols-he hadn't received my

Well I have had an easy week here on my own, rather enjoyed it. Ate what I wanted, (too much curry) and chose the TV progs - no Eastenders. No hassle for working late or generally being in my own house. Missed the children in the evenings but phoned a couple of times and they seemed fine and fully occupied. They returned last night which was great.

Today has been quite a normal day with papers, roast chicken, snowball fights etc. Had a surreal discussion about childcare arrangements and holidays through to 2009, I am now fully booked for the next 12 months.

I find it quite odd that we