So I have had a night to myself, no I didn't sleep in a bed.. I stayed on the airbed where I had the comfort of being me and in my place. I left the blinds open in the hope they came back home, but they didn't. the house was very quiet and for the first time ever I was 'not allowed' to say good night to my girls. I know this is a repeat but this was the text exchange last night. I got a text saying simply "we wont" meaning be back.. "best I come and say goodnight then" "no best you don't" was her response I replied "well then I want to talk to them" "not today its time for

Everything is affecting me now, not matter what it is I am snappy at everyone, whats worse is I know.. I am right now biteing my lip.. stopping myself picking the STBX up and throwing her out the front door.. I tried to have a conversation with her, but once again shes evasive, lies, deceive throws curve balls. I simply asked, "when or if I leave what are you expecting me to pay for?" Her response "I have already told you" "we already discussed this" "Don't you remember" We have never discussed this shes just shouted and with no reference. So we did actually get somewhere.. I

So I have broken at last, sleeping on the airbed paying for everything has finally got me... Divorce caused the biggest argument we have had.. my STBX has worked it all out.. I pay the existing mortgage £770 I pay her CSA £500.. I pay a new house for me 3 bed £800 Apparently I can afford this... The argument got worse and was over the holiday with her, which I said I am not going on, this I have been told is me disrespecting her parents. So I AM LEAVING the house.. I cannot carry on I am starting to become someone else. I am starting to not care about anything, and hating