And today I can’t stop crying. Not sure why. Did my back in moving furniture, got a communication from BH, got no income, but that’s not really it. Wept all night at a really rather charming memory of one of my children when a toddler. Wept all the way through a radio tribute to Barry Cryer. I recently came off anti-depressants, but I honestly don’t think they ever really made any difference one way or another. Almost pre-menstrual, but haven’t had a period since the BH left. I just feel low. A friend of mine warned me that this would happen. The fading of the euphoria associated

After my blog about my sisters not contacting me since we split up, I am now upset because of the behaviour of my daughter Sally. When it all blew up over Christmas Sally wept as I told her about the abuse I had endured. When I made the final decision to leave him in the summer she was fully behind me saying that she always knew her dad was a 'horrible man'. Sally lives overseas and is happily married and we/I tended to visit about three times a year. Last Nov she gave me a birthday treat of a ticket to the ballet over there. Despite this, Pete spoiled it all on our last morning there

I've noticed one of the things I now do that I didn't before splitting with my ex is try to predict the future. I don't have a crystal ball but I'm constantly thinking about the people in my life and issues that are current or may come up in the future and how I will handle them and people's reactions when I do. They will say this and then I will say that and then this will happen and then it will all end in tears. Some of the scenarios are looming issues such as my case with CMS and then Christmas. Others are long term such as my future happiness, issues with children, long term goals