Daughter got the A Level results she needed – so she is happy and on her way to uni after taking a gap year.

I can’t remember a time now when my head had any peace, peace from this continual churning over facts and feelings in my mind. I go to bed and can’t settle, I wake up and its there again. Its all consuming and it makes it very difficult to concentrate and think of anything else. I read loads, but find myself having read a chapter and not remembering any of it, so I have to re-read it or just give up.

I hope when I do manage to confront him and maybe get some answers this situation

Haven't blogged for a while as didn't feel i had much to write to be honest. Nothing has changed in my life, same old routines. My hubby was away with his Scouts for the weekend (again) and came home on Sunday night around 9.45pm. Within in half an hour he'd ask if i would mind if he popped to the pub for a drink. I said no, whatever. I didn't even get an invite, nice eh! Went to my bed instead with a good book. Good books are becoming a big part of my life at the moment lol. Good job i enjoy reading.

Hardly saw anything of him yesterday either. He was working late at work doing wages and

yesterday was my step daughter's 20th birthday. You would think her dad would have been at home for that, but no, Scouts came first again. No sooner was i in the door at 7.30, then he was out again saying he had stuff to do for scouts and bits and pieces to deliver to scouts groups from the weekend. That could have waited. I rang a few times from 10pm onwards and eventually got a call back about 11. Funny how he managed to talk to someone else 5 times (he told me) but couldnt ring me back. Said he got caught up and then popped to Asda to get a cake. He came home about 11.15 in the end. I was