After a few miserable days,some things have come to light,which have really pixxed me off. These things are not a reflection on me,but on another,who has to deal with their actions,yep their path to walk,how they walk it etc is up to them. The thing I am most pixxed off with is myself,I have always gone with the gut,and the gut has so far stood me in good stead,it has seldom let me down,but in this instance it did,but did it?have I been played I don't know the answer..... Lessons learned though,never trust again,well unless your confidant?well saying that ...No never trust... People

Back to reality for me,yesterday back to work after a fab week in Spain.Great to catch up with staff and news,and nothing really happened.This morning on earlies again,after breakfast I sat talking to one of my ladies,just general chit chat,when she keeled over into my lap,and well the inevitable happened.Yes it goes with the job,but it does not get easier,I still feel so sad. Personally I have started thinking outside of the box lately,getting very philosophical in my old age(or very boring)and I realise and can totally accept that I am very lucky,just as most wiki's here.Yes we have crappy

Sorry part 2....:) The villa we had rented had some beautiful gardens,and obviously the gardener tended the plants with loving care.So yesterday whilst lazing by the pool I absentmindly started staring at a palm tree,I could see where the gardener had lopped of the old branches to make way for the new growth.The decayed parts had been cut away,so I think that summmarises my life.Twonk was not happy(nor is he now)but he became the decayed part,my marriage was decayed,and with Twonk lopped from my life,this will enable my new shoots to grow.The foundations are in a deeprooted loving