I had thought over the last year and a half that I had got myself sorted out.

I now realise that I had sorted out regular work, my rental house, had taken up sports and fitness again...but I now realise that I was only part fixed.  Not dealing with money that well, admin is still poor and looking at papers to do with divorce was just a no go area.  Form E is not progressing because so much supporting paperwork is not ready to go.

So trying to turn that around now.  But how long will it take?  It may help me with life afterwards but can I mend or address some issues before court dates (awaiting

Well I haven't written a blog entry in over a year but thought I should share my recent experiences.

When I joined the site things looked very dark and I used to  be almost annoyed by so many people saying 'Things will get better', 'only uphill now' 'light at the end of the tunnel'.  But now I realise they were right and I'm glad that so many people took so much of their time when they had so much going on in their life.

 Things do get better, hurts are less sharp less acute and overwhelming.  The children are doing well and that was my biggest fear - that they would be harmed by the whole

Today was a very sad day.  One of my friends from our village was buried this morning and the village church was full for his memorial service.

 A man of huge intellect and knowledge on any subject you could imagine.  He is such a  loss to us all.  He died in a shooting accident almost two weeks ago.  The church was full with I suppose 200 - 300 people from the various parts of his life.

He leaves a wife and two sons who are strapping fellows.  And he leaves us all missing him.  It is never right for a father to be burying his son.

His death was accidental but to wiki people who are feeling