Enough of this self pitying, self loathing, self denegrating bo!!ocks.
It's pathetic, boring and irritating.
I need to pull myself together and get things sorted.
I need to get a place to live and get out of here for my own good.
I need to get a grip again and get a life.
And I need to get angry. Otherwise I'm going to sit around and moan about what used to be and what is now lost forever.
F**k it. I'm better than that.