I read posts and blogs and should feel lucky that my life is not as bad as others. But somehow I feel empty tonight.
I have the all love and affection my new partner can give and I wonder how he can love me so completly. Why does he stay with me, why does he love me?
I feel isolated from life, from my family. I know at least I see my children and there are those here who dont have that luxury but its not enough.
I try to remember what it was like 2 years ago when I left him. Someone told me it would get better, maybe it has but there are times like now when I dont believe it. Two years