After the stress of my ex not paying my child maintenance again and him reducing his payments (which I had thought would help maintain the mortgage and a possibility of maybe getting a sale on the house before July) I have made the decision to stop paying my mortgage and let them start repossession proceedings.

I need to find money to put down a deposit on a rental property and the only way I can see of doing this is to use the last few months mortgage payments before we get evicted. I am hoping that because I have no other debt that my credit score will not be effected too much before we

After having several more emotional phone calls with the CSA it appears that my ex asked for a new schedule to be run and that I should get this in the post like yesterday, uh, still waiting.

Had made the decision last night after a lot of soul searching that now is the time to let the house go and not pay my mortgage any more hoping that they don't update my credit score before July when we are looking at moving into rented accomodation with my partner.

Was set to email my solicitor this morning and inform her of my decision so that she could write to my ex-husband and tell him that he has put

I can't keep going forever not the way he is treating me and the children.

I rang the CSA this morning to check that my ex had made February's Child Maintenance payment. No he hasn't! They said they would call him and chase up the payment.

Meanwhile my mortgage has been debited from my bank account. I rely on my CM to cover the mortgage along with some of the spousal maintenance he pays each month. We are talking a mortgage of nearly £600 a month which is already 2 and a half months in arrears.

No word from the CSA by 4pm today and so I call them back to chase them up. What I then hear gets me