Here I am again, writing away, although today I have understood my pain and have accepted. Have gone through all the various stages of grieving, my counsellor said treat it like it is a death, difficult though when the guy is still shouting abusive words at you given the opportunity. I feel a lot lighter now that I have my mind focused on the future. Accepting change is always a big challenge to people like me, we like our set ways... However, change can be good, so for those of you who are grieving today remember things always change, and yes it's true there is a silver lining in every

Well after four weeks of finding emails of affairs things have taken a turn, now we are divorcing 'coz its better for the kids', 'coz the differences between us wont change etc etc I am thinkng how selfish,do people who have kids actually think they can walk out on them and then say 'i know my daughter will hate me in 10 yrs time but its ok', is that normal, I ask myself? How did he reach that level without me noticing it? I guess his new sleaze bag has got what she wanted a man who has obviously lost his kids so no baggage, he is all hers. Do people like my X2B and his slaze bag , do they go