I did something stupid this morning and I know I shouldn't have done it. I rang my s2b about dropping something off he wanted and found myself asking him the question I know I shouldn't have.

"Are you happy and is all this worth it"

What was the answer I got? Well he said sometimes he is and sometimes he's not? "Im not skipping through daisies if that's what you think"

 I just feel like im not getting anywhere at the moment and that im just exciting not living. If he's not happy and im not happy what is this all about? I don't know why I am on my own and he is now starting his new life with

 Hi all just a quick note to those of you with kids, you can track where santa is and watch him fly round the world.  My son loves this !

http://www.noradsanta.org/en/home.html

 Happy christmas to all the wiki peeps and hope 2009 will be a good one for us all.

Ivory

Time for another blog....

It's been a very up and down few weeks for me but I feel like I have come through the other side slightly stronger...  I have been full of self doubt and my confidence was at an all time low....   I'm not sure what has turned round the way im feeling but I am glad to be back feeling more positive about my future...  one thing I know has helped me is the love and support of my friends who have been there for me through my wobble... I know ultimately we have to make the changes our self but it has helped me just knowing that you all care so much..... thank you all for