Whilst I am at the computer..thought I'd jot this down. I am having reconciliation dreams about my stbx. Last night was a case in point. I do dream quite vividly at times and have had some bizarre and colourful dreams of late (quite enjoy those..).. Meanings I'm not sure about..falling into a river whilst seeking to cross safely anyone?? Fishing and catching a large fish and injuring it whilst taking the hook out and then releasing it..thinking it will get eaten by a bigger fish?? Anyway I digress.. I dreamt I was in a building that wasn't visually my home but actually was..where my ex was

Somehow fitting that I wrote a very heartfelt post and lost it all before posting!! Really tough day today! Got a stiff talking to from my boss for making mistakes at work.. missing emails.. not making appointments etc. Its the second time in as many months. Feels very much like I'm looking defeat in the face... and I catch myself blaming others.. feeling cross when ultimately it is I who am responsible for me!! Looking for excuses.. not pretty. I’ve got to take things and turn them around... Keep my job. That’s important. Leave family issues at home and focus on work whilst I’m here. I hate

I'm not the greatest sports fan in the world. I gave up on football about 2 world cups ago and since Sky bought out boxing and cricket I dont see them anymore. I do love watching things like the Olympics though and the winter olympics are a lot of fun... Not only are many of the sports 'hyper-real' as in Ski Jumping...flying through the air for over 100 meters like some kind of human lance...but there's a tremendous sense of fun in much of the sports (snowboarding etc) which the athletics doesn't have.. But I guess I'm inspired by the efforts of the athletes..some who trained for years and