Gosh, thought i was getting a lot stronger and think i am, well know i am and then someone says something and the hurt comes back.

My niece ( well ex's neice) got in touch as she had heard about the breakup. her hubby had phoned mine to see if we could meet up. They live in scotland so we only meet occassionally, been 18 months since we last saw them.

What got me was my hubby told her hubby we had split because he had been a naughty boy. Naughty boy is not how i would describe your husband cheating on you for 15 months, destroying your life, dreams and plans for the future. I am so mad he can

Well first date with a man in over 20 years!

Was bloody fabulous. It helped he was a friend but it is wonderful when someone really fancies you. Not had a lot of love the last few months kinda knocks your confidence.

Second date tomorrow, really looking forward to it.

Really happy but still have moments when something happens and think i will text and tell hubby. Then remember he won't care,and i shouldn't. But i guess after 20 years habits are hard to break. I still miss what we had and could of had but at least now I can see a life ahead with men to share my life.

So I am going to enjoy while

Gosh can't believe I have a date! Not had a date for over 20 years.

Very nervous even though I have known the guy as a friend for over 2 years.

Can't wait for the first kiss, feel like a teenager, what if i mess up. But hey all i reraly want is to have some fun. No harm in that.

Going out to buy some sexy underwear! you never know what might develop.

Five weeks ago i thought my world had collapsed but now i feel i am starting out on a awonderful new journey and have no idea where i will end up.

So there is life after being dumped and i hope everyone discovers that sooner rather than later.

wish me