http://mobile.nytimes.com/blogs/tmagazine/2014/11/10/london-taxi-test-knowledge/?_r=0&referrer= Don't know if this link will work but this is the best article about the trade that I'm trying to break into. The hours and hours of time and blood sweat and tears that it took on me and my marriage. I can't blame it, but it didn't help. Every spare minute looking at a laminated map of London or revising what point of interest is ion what road. Can I turn left there or is it not allowed? Waking up in the middle if the night with thousands of road names rushing round my head, it was breaking me

I keep getting panick attacks for what is going to happen in a few years time! I think ive mentioned this before but having one now so maybe it will help to write it down. I know nobodys future is set in stone and maybe this shock most have had on this site has made us all realise this more than others. many people chug along in their little worlds not really thinking or fearing the future and some get away with not having these major life changing events, i havent! It all boils down to money, what am i going to do in a few years time when my tax credits stop and i just have my wadges to

Back to reality for me,yesterday back to work after a fab week in Spain.Great to catch up with staff and news,and nothing really happened.This morning on earlies again,after breakfast I sat talking to one of my ladies,just general chit chat,when she keeled over into my lap,and well the inevitable happened.Yes it goes with the job,but it does not get easier,I still feel so sad. Personally I have started thinking outside of the box lately,getting very philosophical in my old age(or very boring)and I realise and can totally accept that I am very lucky,just as most wiki's here.Yes we have crappy