it's been a long few months and I should have come back sooner. I have just spent the past hour and a half reading through blog entries and it has made me feel stronger and more settled that I have felt in weeks. I also had a very good giggle at naturist confession - thanks for that ray :) decree nisi done. I accepted his accusations of unreasonable behaviour and agreed to pay half the costs. not because I haven't got any fight in me but just because I want to move on and I would rather lose everything and have a fresh start more quickly. I've learnt a few interesting things along

Well I have had news on decree nisi. The judge has thrown it out because he wants specific dates the adultry was committed, even though my Stbx has admitted it. What does it matter? So I have to pay another £95 and associated sol costs for a new petition. I can't understand it! Mt solicitor doesn't understand it! It just drags everything on. I have decided not to have any contact with Stbx at all, after he abused me on the phone the other day and I cried for a day and a half. The kids both have mobiles but at the minute have decided not to see him, so there are no arrangements to

My decree nisi will be issued tomorrow, but we will still be living in the same house. It's not getting any easier, he is now much more public about his new relationship, introducing her to mutual friends, romantic comments and photos on Facebook. It's a shame he doesn't love her enough to move in with her and leave me in peace. Then today he phoned me to say someone wanted to view our house, (we are showing people round ourselves as it's with an internet agent), he was out with his gf , and couldn't possibly come back. I was in town shopping, Anyway I decided I would do the viewing as