so where to begin? a middle aged guy a chronic (as in i've been trying to deal with this all my adult life) depressive suffering from ocd (which was apparently the grain of sand that led to the depression ... as i've been told by the medical profession some 20 years after starting to try to get a handle on this issue :/) married for 17 years (not counting the decree nisi) no kids in the relationship became dependent upon my wife over 10 years ago for the medical reasons noted - at her instigation ... (is that a tripwire??) suffered a major personal and marital breakdown in 2010 had

Got a message from my solicitor today. Apparently the decree absolute has been granted and should be with me shortly. How do I feel? Don't know really. Bit of relief. Bit of sadness. Bit of shame. Bit of pride. Nothing

It's ages since I wrote last I've been busy with life. The no contact has been great for helping me adjust to the extent that I spent a couple of nights in the former marital bedroom last week and slept well with no feeling of ghosts. The letter saying my Decree Nisi had been issued gave me a couple of low days but I had to laugh at the comment that I might be better off as his widow than as his ex wife so to consider whether to apply for the absolute immediately it is available (don't tempt me I thought). Seriously I am much better disposed towards stbx having had no contact but now the