Well our house sold :-)

In the current climate in my neck of the woods that is a very big deal.  Not only that but we actually have equity - although I am not sure how much yet.

We had a month to find somewhere else to live and to clear the house of 17 years worth of possessions.

I had to register homeless with the council, but from that I did get a housing association 3 bed maisonette I can afford.  Its a big change for us - we are now right in the centre of the city as opposed to living in a dormer village...I think the kids are enjoying that - I certainly am!

There are no carpets yet, it took

Today I was in a meeting with at work and was slightly nervous about talking in front of my senior leadership team. I have a 'tic' where by I spin the back of my wedding ring with my thumb. The feel of the metal, the knowledge that no matter how bad the meeting goes I will still have someone to love and share in my experience back home. It reassures me that it will all be okay no matter what.... The only problem? I no longer wear the ring. I no longer have the support of a loving husband at home waiting to hear how my meeting went. That feeling of someone invisible behind you rooting for you

I had kind of a bad evening yesterday, which means it was kind of a standard evening. I sat in on my own (again) and watched TV. That is all I have in my diary until my birthday at the end of the month: January really is awful. A few months ago I was in therapy, I loved my therapist. Though when my ex stopped paying half of the rent and bills I could no longer afford to see her. She helped me realise a few key things: 1. that my ex had fundamental issues from childhood regarding abandonment from his mother at the age of 6 - it would take a life time of therapy to fix 2. with both of