How desperate I must be! seperated 5 months ago but have regretted it ever since, we were married for 25 years and I miss him so much, it was my idea but I wanted him to beg me not to go and suddenly there we were - seperated!
Anyway spoke to him on phone and asked could we try again - he said no too much had happened and nothing would have changed. So in desperation wrote to him (been having counselling and althought I am supposed to write a letter I dont think the counsellor meant me to actually send it!) told him I had ben having counselling etc and basically begged him to reconsider.