It's amazing what a difference a year makes. I'm no longer tense and anxious - I no longer feel physically sick at the sight, sound, thought of my x2b. His messages don't through me into a state of anxiety.
Nothing is sorted out. I still don't know what my future will be or if he'll hang on for ever with delays and more delays. But I've got used to that too.
Importantly, the children seem much happier and more settled than they have been for years. Of course they don't like the separation but what went before was pretty bad. Now they have a mother who has the confidence to run her own