I just got an email from the NFL team. Included was a scan of the decree nisi.

I wasn't prepared for how I felt when I read it. My s2bx is no doubt going to be distraught when she does. She's much more vocal about her emotional condition.

So, how did I feel? Sad, basically. Sad & a failure. A failure because I couldn't make it work, sad because it was there in black and white.

 Why should I feel sad? Maybe it's because I don't actually hate her. She means well, she's a human being and I love every decent human - she's just impossible to live with. As soon as you can't walk away from her, you

Got myself an early (well, earlier) night last night.  Had the offer of a drink out with a friend, but decided to get more sleep instead!

Feeling a bit brighter this morning - got a business meeting arranged for 1pm today - and determined to get on with things work-wise and various bits of paperwork (both divorce related and otherwise) that have been hanging around.

Also seeing my son at 6pm today until 4pm on Sunday so really looking forward to that - so a house tidy and vacuum is required!  

Looking forward to the Wiki South do in London tomorrow night - if contact with my son was arranged

Got another letter from the STBX's solicitor today.

More a**e gravy - despite being the respondent, her solicitor is proposing that I come up with the particulars as I don't agree with the current ones (they are a work of fiction).  Has anyone else been in this boat?  I fail to see anything reasonable about it!

The letter then goes onto say that the STBX doesn't consider it reasonable to wait for a mediation appointment to agree the particulars - this will be the mediation appointment I suggested way back on the 21st January 2009 and she still hasn't agreed to any actual dates!

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