I said in my last entry potential new man, well I have seen him a few times now and I am surprised how it is making me feel, not love but I like him and I have surprised myself by how I am physically attracted to him ! He is letting me take things at my pace , but it is lovely to have a man find me attractive again . Not going Into details, Eliza , but having fun at long last. I am still finding it hard to trust someone new, but I am getting there. It also means I am not wasting my energy thinking about my ex, in fact now when I look at him I wonder what I saw in him. Still not sold

it's been a long few months and I should have come back sooner. I have just spent the past hour and a half reading through blog entries and it has made me feel stronger and more settled that I have felt in weeks. I also had a very good giggle at naturist confession - thanks for that ray :) decree nisi done. I accepted his accusations of unreasonable behaviour and agreed to pay half the costs. not because I haven't got any fight in me but just because I want to move on and I would rather lose everything and have a fresh start more quickly. I've learnt a few interesting things along

well, ive joined a dating agency, sod it, I need some fun, and boy it sure has been ! no meet ups yet. to be honest there might never be, but if I don't try then ill never know, so, this evening ive been exchanging messages with a pretty nice bloke, then, the question, what do you do in your spare time, usual answers, walk the dog, go to my allotment etc, his answer, `im a naturist at home mostly and also the odd holiday` !! Can I really see myself with a man who s dangly bits are on display permanently at home ?????? NO see you later matey