Good morning Wikis, I havent blogged since last year and thought I would let you all know how my new life is progressing.
I still pop into the site, and read your blogs and know exactly what you are going through. I wish I had a magic wand so that I could fast forward your lives to a time when you are over all the pain and upset of your situations. I know how dark the days can be, that sometimes you think it will never stop hurting, and that you wonder what it was you did to deserve all this heartache - but believe me, you can and will get through it. You will find reserves of strength you never thought you had, you will find a capacity for friendship, you will learn new skills, meet new people and gradually the bad days will come less and less, until one day you will discover that you don't miss that person, you are not the person you once were and that you are content with the life you now have.
Sometimes you have to reach the bottom before you can start back up again, I have a lot to be grateful for. I have discovered I am an independent and capable woman, I have two wonderful children who have supported me throughout my journey and as a consequence with whom I have a much closer relationship. I have a lovely man in my life (fellow wiki) who understands what I have been through, and appreciates that I want a different type of relationship to the one I had. Since all this happened, I have a new job, new house, new car and I feel I have totally reinvented myself. I am now a stronger person, I am a person worthy of a good life and I know I did not deserve the treatment I received!
So chin up Wikis! You have taken a positive step by joining this site, you will find support and friendship here and although I don't have that magic wand, I promise everything will get better!
Onwards and upwards!!