went to my doctor's today, and low and behold for the 1st time in ages I actualy got an appointment with my own doctor not a locum..lol
the minute she saw me she knew something was up, said that I looked like I had gone 10 rounds with mike tyson....lol must look bad then ay..lol
told her everything, how I am not sleeping , hardly have any appitite, sometimes I feel so down it's like i'm in a black hole.
She was great let me wittle on about everything for about 40mins, and by the time I finished telling her every sordid bit of my life, She was offering me cups of tea..lol
anyway she has put me on anti depressents, quite high ones too. I know it sounds daft but I am so worried I will get hooked on them and peeps will think I am not capable of taking care of my kids.
she also has given me these tranquilizers to help me relax when I have had a extra bad day, cos she said she is concerned that I will eventualy run myself into the ground and end up hospitalised.
she knows I dont like taking anykind of medication, but she said that it would only be tempotary till things had gone on more of a even keel...... but I'm so worried took me yrs to get off anti depressents when I had post natal depression with my eldist.. and I don't want to give him any ammunition.