well, where do i start. im sure you have all heard this story before a hundred times or more. but i feel i need to get it down in black and white so i can move forward.
oct 15th 2003 im at work, x2b comes in repeatedly buying sweets, to cut a long story short oct 17th went on first date. nov 6th x2b moves from london 2 north west to live with his dad (which is also where he met me) nov 15th x2b moves into my home , proposes to me and i accept. aug 11th 2004 i give birth to our daughter. 15th oct 2005 we marry. 3rd aug 2006 i give birth to our son. may 2007 x2b sleeps with mistress for first time, june 12th x2b informs me that he has been having an affair and moves in with mistress on my daughters birthday ( from previous relationship) since that date we have argued, argued , argued and argued. iv tried and tried and tried to get him to see his children, explain why he left, why he fell out of love with me ect ect. he has paid no maintanace even though csa areinvolved. right now x2b, mistress and her children are in paris enjoying the sights and disneyland. i have filed for divorce under adultery without naming her. he has of yet failed to send the petition back to court (it has now been over a mth)
right now i feel ahsamed, rejected, tired, disgusting and useless. i know this feeling will pass and will just ride with it and hope i dont fall apart.