It's been 2 days since we agreed I should move out and I'm still here! My wife has been absolutely amazing. I never thought she was capable of such emotional strength (she's usually very vulnerable, fearful etc). The place I was going to move into is in such a mess and the friend who owns the house is undertaking major alterations. I could stay there for a short while but it's not ideal by any means.
Another friend (the ex- of the friend above!) also has a spare room temporarily or a sofa if I'm really desperate but today, on the way back from the park with my son I noticed that the house owned by a couple I know is now up for rent and it's about 200 yards from where my family live at the moment. Perfect!! Unfortunately they've not replied to my phone message so may be away over half term. I've got another night in the marital home then I think I'll be on my friend's sofa for a few days. It would be lovely to have my own space, even though I can't afford it. I was joking to my wife that when the kids get on top of here she can just say "go on, go up the road and bother your dad". I'd like that.
The weird thing is, family life seems completely normal. We eat together, play together, even sleep together (a friend of mine and his wife continued to sleep together - and the rest - for three months after she announced she was leaving him for her new lover!!). I have such respect for my wife and the way she is dealing with the situation. I think she's moving on herself. She has expressed so much anger and upset these past couple of months, she must just have all that out of her system. We are both clear that we want to stay positive and cooperative throughout, whatever the outcome. I know others have said this before and failed. We intend not to.
I keep getting upset, crying here and there at all the little reminders of our life, the generosity of spirit of my wife is also really touching. Let's hope I get a phone call tomorrow..