The gaps between my blogs were a good indication that I was needing the support of you guys less and that my life was returning to a level of balance and normality?
Dont let me fool you though, nothing could be further from the truth, despite the plans that I had agreed with my ex over christmas, it was not the holiday season I had hoped for, primarily because she chose to change her mind which left me without them when I wanted and needed the most.
Because of this, and so much other stuff I decided I am done with being nice to her, the push over that I always was and declared her the person that I least want to speak to in the world. Since new years eve we have not spoken....
Today she has told me that she is moving our son to a new school, and because of this I will no longer be able to have them stay over during the week, in addition she has decided that he will have to visit the synagogue every Saturday as well as on Sundays, so even on my weekends I will get limited access.
She didnt consult me about any of this and she expects me to just accept it, like every other thing I have had to accept since out seperation.
I am not sure what I am going to do, but I do know that I have to do something, the first thing I think I need to do is stop being so generous with my child maintenance, this isnt because I want to get one back on her.
Its becuase I currently give her more than double the amount that I am advised I need to pay, secondly because the money that I pay in CM does not go anywhere near the children because she always asks for more to pay for clothes, school fees etc, and lastly because she has a new man who seemingly is making decisions with her about the future of my children without making any financial contribution towards them.
I have said this before, but to remind you, when we split I gave my ex the house, its contents, car, and agreed to take on her considerable debt along with the inflated CM. My only condition was that I could remain a strong influence in my childrens life and that she give me reguler access.
I dont intend to use the money to live it up, I intend to use it initially to get some legal advice and sort out my access rights officially, once this is settled it will go towards thier well being.
Anyway not much point to this entry, well thats not totally true, I am looking for some sort of view, I think I have to stop her from taking the piddle, and get a grip when it comes to my access.