This is so unlike me....sharing my innermost fears and feelings of failure, but I feel inadequate at the moment and am crying as I write this.
My ex husband left me in January 2002, with three kids currently aged 13,12 and 9. He had another child in November 2002 and divorced me in October 2005.
He has irregular contact with the children and hasn't paid any child maintenance since January 2008, prior to this he paid £200 pcm.
My standard of living has dropped considerably since the break up, the children often go without and my debts often go unpaid. It is so so hard just to get by some