I have never written a blog before but one of the lovely, kind moderators on here suggested it might be a good thing to do to try to help make sense of this horrible situation and my complete despair.
My husband and I have been married for nearly 22 years and together for nearly 25. It was a 2nd marriage for both of us. We both had baggage from our respective pasts and I suppose that's why we were attracted to each other. His 1st wife was bi-polar and in the end he couldn't cope with it and he left her. I think I always felt I had to be 'happy' in order for him to stay.
We were fairly happy