Well woke up this morning as if the whole world is on top of me. As if everything that is happening to me can't be real. Fed up and tired of this battle, of solicitors, and court hearings. Just want to feel normal again and wake up with a smile but it's not happening. Just want to feel happy to do the food shopping as it's great to experiment with new recipes.Just want to feel happy doing the housework as it's good to see your house clean.Just want to be happy doing the ironing because it's done for the week.Just want to feel everything is worth while in life but it's not happening. I feel as if I've been shred to pieces and life has become so meaningless.But the battle continues whether I like it or not with all the consequences that come with it. I hope this is my final drop before recovery.But does anyone really fully recover from this grotesque word called "divorce". I don't really think so. We just have to live with it and come to terms with it. I hope everyone else feels alot better than I do and seeing that light at the end of the tunnel which is non-existant for me at the moment.