I feel like my whole life at the moment is going from one anxious worry to another. Just when I feel I've turned a corner, something else pops up and back I go. I wonder if I will ever get on top of this roller coaster of emotions. I've been split from my now ex husband for two and a half years and I've done everything I can to take control of my life. My own home, a good job and a great relationship so why do I feel so anxious. I suppose I'm worried it will all fall around my ears again. I find it hard to feel I'm making the right decisions about issues, try to second guess what will happen as a consequence to these decisions and what certain people will say and do and it terrifies me. My latest.... Ex hasn't paid me any CB since April so have spoken to CMS and started the ball rolling. Everyone tells me I'm right to it but I know my ex is going to react badly and I'm scared. Pathetic really, don't get me wrong he won't get violent but I know he will turn up at my home and rant at me, tell me what I'm doing is wrong and try to talk me out of it. It won't change anything, I know I need to fight this battle for my D but I'm also racked with guilt. Im not going to go into too much detail here at the mo. But situation isn't as straight forward ( never is). So of course I'm constantly thinking 'am I doing the right thing, just wish I could toughen up, forget about for now, I really need to stop being such a wimp.