he used to bring me flowers,silly title pwrhaps?but the man who used to do that has well gone,instead now imliving with a freeloading head player,if you have read any of my other blogs you will have an idea.

how come i cant get him out the house!hes threatening,been arrested twice.dont pay his share of bills,and the mind games ,i yhink he is wanting me to react and try hurt him,im not stupid hes a big guy and not shy at throwing weight around.he goads me on how good sex was with this woman,whom ever she may be.

god she is so welcome to him!

i cant say he was horrible throughout our short

Hi, So here I am 6 months after my ex told me he was having an affair with one of my closest friends and that he was leaving me and the children for her.

Cold hard and to the point. Supposedly they had only consumated it 6 weeks before he leaves.

He walks out on 18 years of marriage and 24 years of a relationship. He leaves 2 children (and his dog!) with no guilt and the only comment being - there was a problem that needed solving so I have solved it!

So where has that left me?

I was devastated to begin with.

I petitioned for divorce in early July and made the mistake of naming her as a

I am now in a position where I realise that I am jealous. Not of her career as my wife and counsellor thought, nor of her support of colleagues at work.

No, I take her desire to have space for herself and to spend tme by herself, her Facebook conversations, texts and meetings with colleagues as a slap in my face saying 'I prefer to spend time in any otherway than with you!'. The doubt keeps coming into my mind that someone else is trying to be a friend with the intention of being more than a friend later.

My rational side does not believe it, the irrational thoughts just seem to keep