sometimes i just feel so low, all i want to do is crawl away and hide, the room is crowded, people all around, but i'm invisible, dying inside. whats my problem? i do not know? is it fear, sadness, or simply madness, keep on smiling keep on trying live thy life like it has meaning. who am i, what am i doing, where am i going, what am i here for? am i good enough, do i have what it takes? dragging others down, that is not my intention, but sadly is a consequence i fear, don't wish to burden, my tormented mind, it will pass, just give it

The past year, or 2 or 3 and god knows how many before it my life has been a sham. But to my knowledge I was not so blissfully unaware of how bad my life was. Lesson for me to wise up, burying ones head in the sand and just trusting things will come right again doesn't work. Being a great Dad only, doesn't isn't enough. Must work harder on any future relationships (wishful thinking perhaps) to resolve any malaises that occur and be proactive to safe guard my love ones, ha ha. Sounds so simple. Why could i not do this before? Can I learn my harshest of lessons and apply this in the

I'm stuck! Stuck in a place no one wants to be stuck in. Life feels like it is passing me by as I wallow in self pity and grieve the loss of the family I loved so much. This is not how things are supposed to be, living with so much anger and hate towards my ex and my replacement. They're all happy, looking forward to their wedding early next year (I discovered pictures of my ex, in weddng dress, on my sons DS). Does it ever end. The amount of time and energy I'm wasting thinking of the past and them, her behaviour, is ridiculous but I don't seem able to keep the thoughts away from my