For whatever reason my ex has passed responsibility for our daughters 8th B'day party with school friends to me. I have never had to arrange a big do for her before, just family gatherings. I've been to loads of parties at childrens play centre's, which is the easy option, but just wondered if anyone had any amazing ideas that don't cost the earth? My daughter actually said to me the other day that the birthday she remembers is the one where my ex and I hired a village hall and did the catering (ex) invites (ex) and me the party games ourselves. She remembers the party games

Its 3.43am on 28th August 2013 when i woke today. I was sweaty under the covers, my children's soft toys my only company and my head filled with a memory of my ex filling me with anger. Is this what awoke me at 3.43am almost 20 mths on from the end? Perspective required. Its the first time in a long time since i woke in the night like this so that must be progress. I hope it never happens again ever. What triggered it i wonder? Should i care? Was it reading an old email today that i came across at work while deleting old emails? This was one i sent to the ex begging for time to

I hate being angry as i'm sure all of us do but then these ex's of ours didn't play fair, didn't give a rats .... and we now find ourselves having to deal with these hellish emotions that we never wanted to feel and don't really know how to deal with. Time is said to heal, but how much time? For me i hate to think I will turn out as bitter as some, and yet fear I am going down that route. When your whole life was wrapped up in your family with no social life to speak of, no friends, family with their own lives and problems and self confidence still on the floor because in truth it always