Life it seems just has me stuck. I found myself on this site a couple of yrs ago seeking help, answers, advice, someone to talk to, someone who understands. All those things were found, and certainly helped I feel to keep me afloat when all I wanted to do was drown. I was never a confident person as a child, teen, young adult or adult. Recently I attended a work training session where the trainer said we needed to look out for those members of staff who keep their heads down, doing just enough, being average, not pushing themselves to embrace the changes the uni was going though,

I am so tired at present. So tired tonight that i can't sleep. I don't understand why. I'm sorry world i don't seem to be able to progress my life at times. No desire to celebrate being another yr older. Nearly everything in my life seems such hard work. I know, i know many are worse off than me and the way fwd is little bites of the elephant and its all down to me to find myself some missing mojo thingy. I berate myself for even writing this. Oh well, day will break soon just as i drop off no

My counsellor is correct the one stage that keeps repeating itself is the anger one and thus the hardest to let go. Resentment and anger are the only things I think about my ex now. Sadly in today's world it is so much easier to find about other peoples lives and thus the onus is on us to avoid those instances. I find this difficult to do as it still feels like I am being controlled to some degree by my ex. Before all this I could do exactly as I pleased to an extent in the knowledge if i did wrong I could apologise and make things right. Now it seems I have to be careful about what I