I must find a way to feel not alone in the mornings. I start every day feeling awful- but I was never good at mornings. I have always taken about 2 hours to wake up properly. At present, rather than being dopey I am melancholic every morning- not nice. (I know it is better than waking up to the stbx and her verbal abuse. I took to avoiding getting up when I woke for some time to avoid that. The dangers of being self

Will people tell me if I am too self absorbed and self analytical, please? I am concerned that I am too onto Self analysis- ad not getting on and doing things. That I am drifting further and further off the topic of divorce. That I will never get my act together. The last 10 years of my life have been tangled up in family issues. The 'real' world is passing me by. I am beginning to think I should go find a separate counselling and therapy blog somewhere more

Completely forgot to list yesterday: Stbx threatened to kill me and claim self-defence in late 2012- early 2013- probably about a dozen times. The fact that stbx has always claimed to have been in the Army and trained in unarmed combat and an expert in knife fighting only added to my confusion. Stress level 90%. Would she actually do it?- I don't know- she says all sorts of things when she is in a temper. Is it worth finding out? No. Watched a programme on Channel 5 tonight 'Battle Scarred' about ex-army people back in civvie street. She is not as bed as them but the