Time to count my blessings, I think.

 Two years ago, on the 11th of October, my friend died. She was only 38 years old, and had 3 young children under the age 0f 7, and a devoted husband.She was an amazing woman, full of life, humour, and love for her family. She left a lasting impression on all who had the fortune to meet her.  To have your life snatched away from you like that makes me realise just how fortunate I am to wake up every morning breathing.

The past year has taught me so much, that no matter what life throws at you, you can recover, become strong again and look to the future.

Well I haven't bloged for a while so here goes.........

Im feeling quite up at the moment and thought for a change I would blog in a good mood. Mentally I am feeling much stronger and life is starting to feel like it is finally going somewhere. I was reading some of my old blogs and it made me realize that I have in a short space of time come along way. I know things are still very uncertain and im not sure of my future right now but I am at last looking forward and trying not to look back too much.

I have lots to be thankful for, I have my son who gives my love and hugs every day, I have got

Hi all,

I've taken your advice and went to my doctor.  I'm looking after myself - sented candles, bubble baths, bright clothes instead of my usual black and brown at work.  I'm even wearing skirts.

I've bought food and I'm eating more than I was.  I want to live.  I lived against the odds with the combination of pills and alco I took.  It's a miracle.  I'm not religious but the future must hold something good for me.

Only problem is I'm not sleeping but hopefully as time goes by I will.  I've always had that problem and have tried everything but it is worse than ever.

Thank you my dear friends