Stbx has changed his mind again and accepted my offer.  When he said he didn't accept the other week it was because SHE had put her oar in. SHE has paid her husband a lot more than I was offering and wasn't happy.

 Spoke to stbx last week about having daughter regularly. Said again that he couldn't have her until he got money from me so he could buy bunk beds (SHE has two kids). I then explained that by going through mediation as he wanted to this would take months if not longer. It was not acceptable that he couldn't have daughter overnight to that length of time. Also put in that he would

Well first off .... I am sitting here absolutely full of cold :( I gues it's karma for taking those two days off last week when I was having my 'mini-crisis'. Despite all of this, however, I feel emotionally in a much stronger place than I have felt for a long long time :)

Why am I feeling like this I hear you ask ??? Cos I have now received a copy of my late father-in-law's will and now have totally clarity on the situation regarding the ownership and manner of purchase of the London property owned by my STBX and his mother !! Basically, my STBX was left NOTHING in his father's will and

Friday.

Loads happening, almost too much to write about. In the outside world we had to have our cat put down this afternoon. Our kids wanted to be there and they were, but my stbx held her while she went to sleep. I wanted so much to be able to support her because I am a compassionate person no matter what the circumstances. She didn't let me get too close to start with but eventually cracked and let me give her a hug.

I didn't mention the new bracelet she is wearing proclaiming her love for her new man, which is a sign that I really am in the acceptance phase at last. A few weeks ago I would