first blog for a while,  well found out today why my husband left he has a new woman in his life and its probably been going on for some time,  i had my suspicions over a year ago and he always denied it,  now i have been told the truth and confronted him today and he has admitted it,  for about six months i have been ill thinking all of this was my fault and on pills etc to try and work out why why why well for some reason todays news has made me feel better as i know  i am not mad and none of this was my fault  just wish he had been honest in the first place it would have stopped a lot of

Ok, so my ex is getting married today. I got myself truly upset last night and done half a bottle of vodka liquor for what?

She is welcome to him, I don't love him, haven't done for a long time; so why I am getting so stressed out?

 He has just come to MY house to collect our eldest 2 children as they are going to the wedding.

It is my 6 yo birthday party today, (his birthday yesterday) but planned his party today so as he had something special for today too.

I am getting all upset again and I hate it, why am I wasting my emotions and tears on him?

I have a truly lovely, loving, caring, honest man

well just an update on my messy life.

hubby rang me today and of course during the conversation i brought up the subject of "her"..i try not to ..honest i do ,but it keeps goin round in my head and cant stop it ..

hes now sayin he,ll wait for as long as it takes to be with her  ..oh my god ! i so did not want hear that but ,my fault i suppose . so for rest of the day at work i cried for england! my lovely friend at work sobbed with me !

this afternoon i went to see a solicitor for more advice as hubby is threatening not pay me sm cod he doesnt see why he should and has also said he will stop