Today was a rough day. 

I woke up as normal tired but looking forward to the day ahead. I had something on my mind that kept nagging. something needs to be done, and once it's done, I knew it meant losing something close to me. but it had to be done. so it was done.

I sat here, in this very seat, emotionally drained and in need of a good cry.

but I didn't cry. I just stared

Then I recieved a letter of rejection to something I applied for and worked very hard on for a long time. I should have been very angry.

but I didn't get angry.  I just stared.

The whole day I was feeling down. I did all the

Some of the

Hi All

For those that have met me, probably think im one big party animal but im not all the time, I still have feelings and still get very down.  Havent blogged for a while and yes I love to party really love it but we cant be party animals all the time!

 It all happened with me last Thursday and was saying to peeps how good I have been with no contact ect for 5 weeks and the rest.

That particular day got a bit silly as was having a clear out and came across some a remote control which I thought was his as well as some anniversary cards from our first wedding anniversary.

I texted him to ask