I am lonely 

I am always amazed at myself when I feel lonely. I ask myself what changed? haven't I been alone for years. I'd been alone, but not necessarily felt lonely. I lived alone all my adult life till I met him. And in recent years the norm was me spending most of my time alone.  

So why do I feel so lonely now?

Is it perhaps the loss of hope? hope that he will sort himself out and we will be an intimate couple again?

I am so lonely I can

Hi All

For those that have met me, probably think im one big party animal but im not all the time, I still have feelings and still get very down.  Havent blogged for a while and yes I love to party really love it but we cant be party animals all the time!

 It all happened with me last Thursday and was saying to peeps how good I have been with no contact ect for 5 weeks and the rest.

That particular day got a bit silly as was having a clear out and came across some a remote control which I thought was his as well as some anniversary cards from our first wedding anniversary.

I texted him to ask

Firstly, may I apologise.

I haven't been in wiki for some weeks.

Before, people used to comment on my blog with very positive c0mments, and with all of the support and understanding I received, I felt strong enough to take life on by myself.

Silly me!

What I forgot however is that - people don't really change. Neither should they, I guess. I mean, I know my wife is very controlling, and that's the reason why we clash, but it's absolutely not my place to try and change her.

There will be, without a shadow of doubt, some man out there who doesn't look on her as being controlling. She is, for me