evening...

i need to rant - im angry - ive been angry all day -

why ? ok -

im angry that we've split up, im angry hes had an affair, im angry he's made me lost all trust that i've had with him - whats bought this on.

ok so ive been thinking alot as ive said before about me and my future....im lonely said that before too.....but i just cant get involved with anyone again...i cant go through that hurt again.....i cant trust again...why do it to yourself ???

why because love and everything that goes with it is lovely..........or should be...

when 2 people are in love they should be able to trust each

Hi peeps,

On Sunday nite I got a phone call from my stbx asking how I was and telling me he cared.  I spoke my mind about all the lies he told but yet he still asked if I loved him.  I told him that I did as my husband but that would go eventually and I can't wait to burn our wedding pics and afford a divorce.  I told him that he was never welcome back at my house and he hung up.  I was so angry that he had the audacity to try and keep his options open when he will be eventually kicked out of his mother's.  I told his cousin and spoke to his mother's boyfriend - desperation to get him to stop

I was so nervous about her visit on Sunday, strange that I would be so anxious about seeing my own wife, it was the first time I'd seen her since the afternoon I found her at that guys house, but we had to start sorting things out and I couldn't put it off forever.

She had arranged to be there for 10 and arrived around 10.05.. I'd locked the front door and left the key in the night before, so when she arrived, her key wouldn't open the door and she had to ring the bell. I unlocked the door and let her in. I asked her to come into the kitchen. I sat down and asked her what she had to say, I