Last night and today is one of the worst I have ever experienced, the love of my life Pippa was diagnosed with a tumour.

She has seen me over the last 12 years go through hell and back with my stbx, always offering a smile, cuddle and a wag.  She has only just come out of surgery 2 weeks ago and now I have to make the decision on what is best for her, surgery and chemo or painkillers and let her go.

I've read up on the tumour which helps as I now know if it is stage 11 she won't have much chance and the extra time she would get isn't worth putting her through the pain.

I love her so much, I got

Hi,  I thought I would write a quick blog as I have had a great night.

i started out feeling fed up, tired, angry etc as I had to help write my daughter Rachel's statement to give to my x's solicitors.

Now it is finished, yippee

I feel like a weight has been lifted just by finishing it, it's surprising how something as simple as a statement can drag you down.

I know a lot of people, myself included, have days when you just want to run away and try to forget this is all going on.

you wonder whether the courts make you do all this paperwork to either put you off divorce or get you to settle because

Please help.

I am usually an extremely strong person, I have had to be to survive, I don't cry when anyone is around as they need my strength during the day to see them through especially my daughter who is so kind and caring and offers me so much love.

I have waited until everyone is asleep and am now sat crying as I write, today I have been typing out my daughter Rachel's statement, she is 2nd respondant in my divorce as we have a property business together and to protect her half of them she has had to be joined, I tried negotiating with her dad so she wouldn't have to go through this but to