This week saw the 9 month mark come and go - 9 months since he left, 9 months of varying degrees of varying emotions, 9 months of finding myself again and growing stronger. 

During this period, communication with him has been very sparse, mainly through the sols, as was my request. However this week there has been a flurry of text messages in relation to the possiblity of him buying me out of the house. At first, it was ok, I thought - this is good, we are finally getting somewhere, getting things sorted, but the tone changed and then he said he didnt know what he was going to do - typical,

I am not sure how I am going to get through this but feel writing it down might help!  To all you readinbg this sorry for going on...

I have been with my husband for 25 years in all and married 18 years.  For the last 8 years he was on the internet 'chatting' to other women and left me and the kids 4 years ago for another woman but after 5 weeks came back and said he loved me.  Foolishly I took him back but he refused to go to Relate and we carried on from there me feeling he was going to do it again and him not really being able to offer any reasons that he did it other than he felt lonely. 

Have had a good week. I feel relaxed, normal and happy. STBX has been out of the country and is way too tight to text anything from abroad, so I have had more breathing space and peace than I have had for the last eight months or more. I realise that I still have a huge way to go until this feeling is more or less the norm, but it has really given me some strength and time to gather myself for the forthcoming year or more.

At the beginning of all this (Oct 06) I was so dismayed when people told me it took years to be 'normal'! lol again and that things would take years to sort and that I was