Eldest came at the weekend and said wanted to have a week with me and a week with his dad so I was over the moon thought it was a great idea and would work really well.  Youngest still wants to be full time with his dad.   This week I asked if he had spoken to his dad and he said he wouldn't be pressurised in to it and if I did he would take longer to decide ?!  What do you say to that I am in a constant state of anxiousness.

I am so sure my stbx is feeding them things and turning them against me I hate him but also miss him aswell he was my best friend for so long but now he has left me and

I started this blog as my profile, initially I felt too shy to post it, but having reviewed it I thought it would really be better as a blog

Steve

Hi

I'm a 53 year old professional man living in North Devon, Happily Married (So I Thought) for 8 years. My wife has recently left, and has flown to Sweden to see her 2nd Cyberlover for a month (09/07/2008). Prior to that she went to Rhodes a month ago to see another Cyberlover

Currently feeling all the emotions one expects happens in such circumstances (sadness, loss, emptyness, betrayal, fear, uncertanty,guilt, concern for her well being etc.

I just found out I didn't get a job I went for last week and I am gutted. It's the only interview I've had I and I am trying so hard to get work so I can look after my son.

No one will give me a chance. I'm intelligent I even have a degree which doesn't seam to be helping me. I haven't worked for 8 years and now I can't get back in. Rejection is hard when you're feeling so low about everything else. I don't know what to do or how I'm going to get work and I need to work so badly. I thought this was going to be the start of some good news for me but clearly not. I keep picking myself up and