Blog Entries tagged 'tired and exhausted'

Social services

bertie1670@googlemail.com — Thu, 20 Nov 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Now we have social services involved in this. Not just Cafcass but the child care team. I don't know if this is good or bad as I have yet to speak to the case officer myself. stbx has been interviewed and apparently children are to be seen tomorrow but no-one seems to know for sure and no appointment has been made. I am guessing that our GP has contacted them but it could have been the school although they wre reluctant to action things.

I think I said last t [...]

A bit of a mess......

flopsybunny_uk@yahoo.co.uk — Thu, 13 Nov 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I'm not sure where to begin with this blog – things have been a bit of a mess recently.

My house went on the market last week – I only found out that it was actually on the market from someone in the local shop, who had seen it in the paper! A week later, I have still yet to be informed by the estate agents that my house is now up for sale. An offer came in on Tuesday mo [...]

You couldn't make it up!

mommajac@hotmail.com — Wed, 12 Nov 2008 01:00:00 +0100

My estranged husbandleft in 2004, and agreedto allow me to stay in the marital house until our last child left school three years later. He has now decided to exercise his legal right to return to live here. I believe he first mooted this in the summer when I’m told he had to move following the end of his long term relationship. He has suggested we could share the house but I have moved on with my life and, moreover, would not feel comfor [...]

Feeling utterly wretched today

andrewcbaillie@msn.com — Mon, 10 Nov 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Firstly, may I apologise.

I haven't been in wiki for some weeks.

Before, people used to comment on my blog with very positive c0mments, and with all of the support and understanding I received, I felt strong enough to take life on by myself.

Silly me!

What I forgot however is that - people don't really change. Neither should they, I guess. I mean, I know my wife is very controlling, and that's the reason why we clash, but it's absolutely not my place t [...]

Did I get it all wrong?

christian2williams@hotmail.com — Wed, 05 Nov 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Never written a blog before, but this seems like a good idea right now and will hopefully be something to look back on when my head stops spinning like a washing machine!! Needless to say that confused is only one of several emotions I feel at the moment.

My wife and I married three and a half years ago. She had been diagnosed as type one diabetic about six months before, at the time, we'd been together for around 12 years, we had both just turned 30 and decided now was a good [...]

Posessiveness killed me...

satoko_t12@hotmail.com — Mon, 20 Oct 2008 01:00:00 +0100

As my ex cheated, I was only thinking about that damege.

But as I started to calm down and be able to talk about my marriage to my close friends, I realised a few things which I could not notice.

My ex was a cheater, but (or because of that) he was extremely posessive and jealous person. For example, it was really childish of him but I have a favourite band who's singer is very good looking and I was listening them often. But since I started to live with him, I was u [...]

depression

satoko_t12@hotmail.com — Fri, 17 Oct 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I thought, I was doing kinda alright.

But last couple of days, depression kicked in again worse than ever. Got headache everyday, and reduce into tears without any reason while Im working. Just sad and lonely. ALso I always have nausea and although Im hungry, if I eat I feel really sick.

I dont see any hope ahead of my life. Is there any reason I should be suffering from this?

Two days ago, as soon as I got up, I felt really sad and started to cry and felt so much stre [...]

Jedi Powers still warding off the Darkside! Yey!

emdbld@live.co.uk — Mon, 13 Oct 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Well, STBX has introduced his 'special friend' to the girls, good, about time he moved on with his life. They are happy with it and so am I - he doesnt seem to be though!

He is seemingly amazed that I have not reacted to this news, other than 'No, I dont have a problem' and 'yes I am getting divorce sorted' (as he 'told' me to last week by text - it has been held up by him controlling when HE wants it done in his words ''I dont care ho [...]

Lipstick and Perfume

reem@mahadi.freeserve.co.uk — Fri, 10 Oct 2008 01:00:00 +0100

There was a time when I felt on top of it all.

A few weeks ago, I felt I owned my life. I worked, I took care of the house and the children. I was on the way to a fantastic career doing what I love to do.

I have lost that feeling.

I no longer feel on top. If anything I feel low, and have felt low for a while. It is gradual. First, I began to sleep badly, then I began to eat badly, then I started wearing my old drab clothes. I stopped wearing lipstick and today [...]

Trying to let go and move on

dawnuk57@yahoo.com — Sat, 27 Sep 2008 01:00:00 +0100

We lived together 3 years, bought a nice house and got married. We didnt have children as i couldn't stay pregnant for long, always miscarried around 8 weeks! Hubby had 4 kids from 1st marriage and we all got on pretty well, they stayed with us some weekends & on holidays, they lived away so contact wasnt constant.

I thought we happy together on the whole, despite his problems with alcohol & pill addiction (codeine dependency).

I encouraged him to leave his employmennt [...]

Emotionally tired!

s73serendipitous@aol.co.uk — Thu, 25 Sep 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I am emotionally tired of the situation I seem to keep being brought back to. I won't go into detail as I am not looking for opinion or concern.

I have felt drained of late but still need the support of my close friends on wiki and so when in the chatroom I have been seen to stay in private chat. I am not going to apologise for this because this is all I can handle at the moment, that has become clear in the last few days.

I still need to be in the chatroom to give and receive [...]

Running on empty

annpawley@btinternet.com — Tue, 23 Sep 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I don't know how I am at present. Tearful. Feeling quite alone I think. Not quite the same as lonely; lots of friends about me, but no-one to really share the burdens. How I miss my dad!

Yesterday I couldn't break through the feeling of being completely overwhelmed, sitting amidst the washing and dirty dishes, the house in a tip. I was lucky that a friend popped in and gathered me up for an afternoon of tackling the gardening together or things would be even worse.

Why?

barbie44@hotmail.co.uk — Wed, 17 Sep 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Have spent the last few days back and to to the hospital. My 17 year old daughter was admitted last Saturday in severe pain. Turns out she had a ruptured cyst on her ovary which got infected. This is the second time this has happened in 2 years. She has been in absolute agony and on morphine. There is nothing worse than seeing your child in pain and not be able to help. She is getting better and hopefully will be discharged today.

I ra [...]

Thanks for being here Wiki!

juliet.steven@tiscali.co.uk — Tue, 16 Sep 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Hello!

I just feel so miserable at the moment. Nothing in particular, just that horrible, gnawing, empty feeling that comes over me every so often.

There are a lot of things going on at the moment. Extra hours at work, forms to fill, finances to be sorted, an angry teenager who has only me to take his anger out on, a dog who is in need of a really long walk etc etc in addition to my stbx & her who are still lurking in the shadows of my mind like a couple of stalke [...]

Being hassled

gioholiday@aol.com — Tue, 16 Sep 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Thought that today was ok, ups and downs, lots of rushing off to toilets for quick cry, and crying on the drive home from work - why does that 'special ' song always come on when you're feeling vulnerable?

Went to gym, if nothing else my body is fit (unfortunately the red rimmed eyes and bags underneath spoil the effect somewhat!) Have blocked STBX number from my mobile as I still cannot face talking to him, I'm not strong enough yet. When I got home, my s [...]

A long week

memorcarpediem@yahoo.co.uk — Tue, 09 Sep 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I think this has been the worst week I have ever had. After my last blog where he said he didn't love me I hit the bottom. I wouldn't commit suicide but it's what my brain was telling me to do, I was throwing up, non stop crying and well you all know what it's like. It got worse on friday as my 15yr old had enough and went to my sisters. Before people think why didn't I go to the dr before to get help, I couldn't, I was waiting for a medical report to be done for a new [...]

A belated blog entry

andrewcbaillie@msn.com — Thu, 04 Sep 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I'd been so looking forward to yesterday. Silly really, but the kids had been around me so much (especially H because she'd finished school in May), that I really needed "ME TIME".

Yesterday, they were back at school! At last! ...and her, COW as I've nicknamed her, was at work, and I had the whole house to myself.

Now, I'd taken a bit of time here, and a little time there, to start - and bring up-to-date - this blog. I was almost at the point where all th [...]

What happened last night.

memorcarpediem@yahoo.co.uk — Tue, 02 Sep 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Need to blog and stay close to wiki at the mo, was going to hibernate for a few days but I know that is the worst thing to do.

Yesterday he arrived at 6pm as planned. sat down and I asked for exact details of his current relationship with her and asked where he was at and where he wanted to go with me. He said he is living day to day and no idea where he is at or where he is going. She is a very close friend and it is at the moment non sexual. He couldn't explain how everyone [...]

D-day

memorcarpediem@yahoo.co.uk — Mon, 01 Sep 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Well took the lead and today is d-day. Tonight we are going to sit down and talk. Tonight I need answers. He is going to have to talk about her, his feelings for me and everything else. I cannot cope with this anymore. Got about 2 hrs sleep again last night and am struggling to even focus on basic simple things. I feel shaky and sick and cannot carry on like this. I need answers.

Tonight he has to make a decision. Properly sort things out with me or that is it. I am taking control. He [...]

Heading back to the bottom

memorcarpediem@yahoo.co.uk — Thu, 28 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Flipped out big style last night. Lesson to self - do not try and box emotions up with kick up backside as they are not ready to go away yet. He's not ready to come back but he's still dangling that carrot. I have no idea whether I want him back or not, I just want to stop hurting. I sobbed and sobbed, another nights lost sleep and such pain. I managed to work for 3 hours but back to achieving diddly again. Can't go to drs for any pills until medical for new job done. Hopeful [...]