Blog Entries tagged 'my day today'

Caring more about the pets than about us

andrewcbaillie@msn.com — Fri, 29 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Really? Oh yes.

I mean, pandering to the cat and dog to the extent that she'll allow them to drink the remainder of her milk from her breakfast bowl out of the bowl itself.

That, for me is just disgusting.

Oh yes, I said to stop it, too right I did. But she won't be told what to do, will she. Nope, what we'll do instead is to make sure 'Dad's' not around when it happens instead.

I mean, what the animals want is far more important than what I and [...]

Your opinion

andrewcbaillie@msn.com — Fri, 29 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Just want to get my head around something here, your feedback would mean a lot.

I first noticed the following trait about my wife, and over the years there have been many instanceswhere this trait has reared it's ugly head.

Years ago and at 3.00 in the morning I woke up. Struggling to get breath. I have slight asthma. I mean, it wasn't the end of the world, but tight chested and in need of my inhaler. But my inhaler had run out.

"Can you call the doctor?&q [...]

Lots more new Blog Entries today

andrewcbaillie@msn.com — Fri, 29 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I've woken up today and felt a wave of desire come over me to "Write It Down".

You see, nearly a year ago something happened in our house (which I'll write about later).

In my eyes, what happened was, well - extra-ordinary.

So upset by it was I at that time, I took myself off to the doctors. I had been meaning to go anyway, I'd been feeling low up until that point anyway and needed to chat with someone about the levels of my drinking that h [...]

Heading back to the bottom

memorcarpediem@yahoo.co.uk — Thu, 28 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Flipped out big style last night. Lesson to self - do not try and box emotions up with kick up backside as they are not ready to go away yet. He's not ready to come back but he's still dangling that carrot. I have no idea whether I want him back or not, I just want to stop hurting. I sobbed and sobbed, another nights lost sleep and such pain. I managed to work for 3 hours but back to achieving diddly again. Can't go to drs for any pills until medical for new job done. Hopeful [...]

I'm bored with these mood swings!!

juliet.steven@tiscali.co.uk — Wed, 27 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Hello again!

I'm getting really bored with these mood swings!

I had a great day with my mother & my son at the wildlife park. We all enjoyed ourselves & yes, we laughed & we had fun.

I volunteered to drive my elderly mother home as she doesn't like catching the train in the evening, but dropped my son home on the way as he wanted to see his friends. I eventually got home about an hour ago, 2 ½ hours after my son. In the meantime, my hu [...]

My walk in the woods

annpawley@btinternet.com — Wed, 27 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I had to take my car for its MOT this morning so found myself with a couple of hours to fill. I decided to pull on the wellies and go for a tramp in the woods a short distance from where we used to live.

I used to come here most days with the dog when we lived nearby. Fortunately this is a space I consider to be "mine" rather than "ours" and it was always a place where I felt at peace and very connected. Unlike so many other memories, I felt pleas [...]

My life's analogy

andrewcbaillie@msn.com — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

This is all a bit random – but as thoughts that have been in my head occur, I kinda want to write them down. It’s my release, and now that I know that people do actually read these things, it’s a way of sharing my thoughts…

…about 2 ½ years ago, something happened in my life that has helped me to understand an awful lot of stuff that, prior to the event, made no sense whatsoever.

What was this event? My wife and I started ballroom danc [...]

A small glimpse?

juliet.steven@tiscali.co.uk — Sat, 23 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Hello!

Just need to record the fact that my husband came to take our son out today &, for once, I didn't cry or get angry or look sad. In fact, I didn't even feel vulnerable. I have surprised myself!

I suppose I was feeling in quite an upbeat mood to start with- I have been struggling with my confidence & self-esteem throughout all of this, but have been making myself ‘get out there', into the big wide world, & this is, at last, beginning to p [...]

Updated - Need to vent even more

memorcarpediem@yahoo.co.uk — Sat, 23 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

He said "don't be so paranoid"....$%&#!!.....He wanted to see me over weekend but I was at bbq till about 8-3opm last night and he said urrrr out by then sorry...........he was out in pub where tart works, where he met her originally................I suggest tonight................ugh sorry..............he out again, I challenge does he have time to fit seeing me in his busy dating/single life and he says "don't be so paranoid"................EXCUSE M [...]

Beyond belief and then some more.

memorcarpediem@yahoo.co.uk — Thu, 21 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Not sure how my sanity is still in tact. Idiot is on his way back from the funeral that I wasn't invited to and wanting support (the man who died I knew for about 17-18yrs and i wanted to go to funeral). My 15yr old has face of bruises from falling over as she said she was staying at her friends house last night but turned out they stayed elsewhere, out till all hours drunk. At least she was honest but this boys mother picked them up and even in the state they were in didn't think to [...]

I'm Here - Justice prevails!

sarahchidwick@hbosplc.com — Thu, 21 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Dear wiki family,

Thank you so much for your kind words and support over the past week.

It's been one hell of a time for me and my family, but I'm still here to tell the tale!

Phew!

The magistrates & court clerk were reasonable and, I believe sympathic. On the down side -I have been banned for 12 months! Oh Hell - well we'll deal with that tomorrow! On the good side -I don't have to pay ugli mistress any compensati [...]

Out with the Families on the demos

linda.mcdermot@ntlworld.com — Thu, 21 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I am having a break from the 2004-2006 diaries as this week 18th - 22nd August 2008 is the start of yet more demos, this time with street acting , so I have been out with the other families turning up outside the courts in Luton, Hemel & Watford on the Hercules bus.

We go back to 2005 from the Fassit forum. About a [...]

Calm returning (about time!!!!!)

memorcarpediem@yahoo.co.uk — Wed, 20 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I woke this morning and was happy to get up, I wanted to get on with some writing up of my research and even had a quick hoover first. Hmmmmm not felt like this for a long time. Weird, like my brain could take no more!

Had long uppy and downey day yest. Had 15 cases in court as well (worst fruit loop I have had in long time yest), then had sister over for 2 hours, she needed to off load (both had violent abusive childhood with alcoholic father) and it brought back [...]

It was Supposed to Have Been a Treat!

macrae.macrae@btopenworld.com — Tue, 19 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Yesterday was one of the most stressful I have had to endure since being asked to leave.

Several months ago before all this blew up I booked a family outing for my wife, 2 eldest children and myself - train to London - King Tut exhibition at the O2 - cinema - boat trip on Thames - and meal before train home.

Although we had had a bit of a row the previous day I persuaded my wife that she had to come as the kids had been looking forward o this treat for a long ti [...]

Pray for rain ..... please!

steve@rigdens.wanadoo.co.uk — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Up and down, up and down and so it goes on.........

Finally finished the decorating yesterday, 6 coats of emulsion later (yes really - 6 coats!!) and the hall, stairs and landing are done ..... just dont look too close! Not a professional job by any means, but I did it myself, no help .... just me.

It was finished just in time for a visit from him! He was desperate to see the kids, they are giving him a hard time and not giving an inch in their quest to make him [...]

Need AK47 please

memorcarpediem@yahoo.co.uk — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Wow, totally winded now. How thnigs can change in a few hours. He texted a few times and then rang. Ooops he changed his mind again. No reconciliation, just friendship and sex on offer. Actually forced him to talk about barmaid and he now say they friends, mentioned re' all his friends thought they were a couple, he denied it again. He is feeling hard done by as he says it's alright for us women as we keep the family home, kids etc etc but the poor blokes lose everything. AW [...]

Reconciliation?????

memorcarpediem@yahoo.co.uk — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Well after yest morning and was so low, I got up, had bath, did hair and make up, went out to lunch with my daugter, then long walk round Hengistbury Head, then soup kitchen. It did wonders as had no time to think.

But when in the restaurant it was funny. It was mainly couples and family groups. I was watching them. Bar one couple in early 20's not one of the couples was laughing and most weren't even talking to each other. As for the families it was the same, exc [...]

Wheely, wheely tyred of all this

mikehart@boltblue.com — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Sunday morning, 7:35.... ring, ring....
ZZZZZZ, Grunt, Hello?
Michael? (Oooeeer Sunday name..Not good then...)
Yes?
Got a problem
What's that?
Puncture

The significance is that she is supposed to collect the Sunday chambermaid on her way in from her rented house, 8 miles from our hotel, for her breakfast shift - Full house, 22 for breakfast. My morning off.

The impact is that I have to leap out of bed, run around like a headless chicken [...]

Ten steps backwards

memorcarpediem@yahoo.co.uk — Sun, 17 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Back to feeling rock bottom again. I thought I would be ok but after yesterdays panic I am emotionally back to being a complete mess again. I drank far too much last night as my head is a bad place to be and thought and tried to be good as in NO TEXTING!!!! Yeah right, did the begging ones.

When am i going to realise it is over. He is lying to me when he says things, I know now he wants his both lives, not just me. I gotta get it in my head he has moved on (he didn't deny barmaid w [...]

Paranoia

memorcarpediem@yahoo.co.uk — Sat, 16 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Ok went out, nothing to do but thought go into town to mooch. I am losing it, every woman I see I wonder is that her? If she is walking around with a young teen girl I almost stop and try and hear if they refer to any names? The barmaid has 13yr old daughter (I know tart and tarts daughters names). Please tell me other have felt like this and I am not going fruit loop. I just need to know what she looks like, who she is, what she is.

Idiot texted me, I am obviouslly in bad mood, se [...]