Blog Entries tagged 'feeling sad and alone'

Loneliness II

reem@mahadi.freeserve.co.uk — Wed, 12 Nov 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I am lonely

I am always amazed at myself when I feel lonely. I ask myself what changed? haven't I been alone for years. I'd been alone, but not necessarily felt lonely. I lived alone all my adult life till I met him. And in recent years the norm was me spending most of my time alone.

So why do I feel so lonely now?

Is it perhaps the loss of hope? hope that he will sort himself out and we will be an intimate couple again?

I am so lonely I [...]

Jekyl and Hyde...my ex

emilyjosedgwick@aol.com — Tue, 11 Nov 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Hi All

For those that have met me, probably think im one big party animal but im not all the time, I still have feelings and still get very down. Havent blogged for a while and yes I love to party really love it but we cant be party animals all the time!

It all happened with me last Thursday and was saying to peeps how good I have been with no contact ect for 5 weeks and the rest.

That particular day got a bit silly as was having a clear out and came across [...]

Its over...

judithallan@fsmail.net — Mon, 10 Nov 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Well today its 6 months since my marriage ended and im feeling very low today.... Im not living just existing day to day.... I finally started my divorce today and when I had put the phone down from the solicitor I felt sick.... I have been putting off doing it not sure why..... I have known for a long while that it's over and somehow just couldn't bring my self to make that step .... Now it is done....

I feel like my life will never be the same again and im n [...]

Feeling utterly wretched today

andrewcbaillie@msn.com — Mon, 10 Nov 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Firstly, may I apologise.

I haven't been in wiki for some weeks.

Before, people used to comment on my blog with very positive c0mments, and with all of the support and understanding I received, I felt strong enough to take life on by myself.

Silly me!

What I forgot however is that - people don't really change. Neither should they, I guess. I mean, I know my wife is very controlling, and that's the reason why we clash, but it's absolutely not my place t [...]

Still no sense

christian2williams@hotmail.com — Sat, 08 Nov 2008 01:00:00 +0100

As the days go by, I'm wondering if she has actually slept with this guy or just wants me to believe she has to push me away. She passed me in her car tonight around 9pm (I was driving in the opposite direction). Odd that she wouldn't be with her new man on a Friday night, I also find it strange that she paid for the meal out I discovered on her credit card, surely if this guy was wining and dining her, he would have paid (I know she would have let him).

Her mother called me [...]

Mostly rain

judithallan@fsmail.net — Sat, 08 Nov 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I woke up to the sound of silence. No one home only me.....

I suppose I should get used to this feeling as its how it's going to be...

I'm not feeling myself at the moment struggling to be positive about my future..... Thinking about the next few weeks and all that comes with Christmas and new year is making me feel sad... I just don't see what I have to look forward too at the moment....

I feel like im going through the motions for my son an [...]

Struggling at the end of my journey

flopsybunny_uk@yahoo.co.uk — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 01:00:00 +0100

On Tuesday, I am due at the sols to sign the very simple form that will legally end my marriage - nothing more than ticking a few boxes and writing my name and address, then signing it. Such a simple end to a long and emotional journey. One I have waited a year for.

I had thought that I could sail through this last bit, it would be pain-free. How foolish and stupid of me. I dont want him back (god, no!), but I do regret that the marriage ended the way it did. I [...]

Day One - being buried in the woods

caroline.steed@ntlworld.com — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Dear Blog

Thank you for all the support I have received from my wonderful friends.

Been feeling really low and unreal - my mum and dad tell me to put a brave face on and smile and i will feel better - true I know, I will try harder!!! People have been very kind and nice to me, very kind - my friends seem to have been nicer to me than my husband has - what does that say?

What is love ? my mum asked me what attracted me to him in the first place? hell I was 15 that's [...]

Husband Moved out today

caroline.steed@ntlworld.com — Wed, 05 Nov 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Don't really want to write much ..... my husband moved out today. After months of sort of trying to put things behind me I cannot forgive him and move on. he has not helped in this by not making me feel more secure. I am supposed to just think that its over and she has gone away, although I am not too sure about this.

Pleaded with him to come home at 8 pm last night instead of working over and being with her - but no - wouldn't do it - when he fina [...]

Did I get it all wrong?

christian2williams@hotmail.com — Wed, 05 Nov 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Never written a blog before, but this seems like a good idea right now and will hopefully be something to look back on when my head stops spinning like a washing machine!! Needless to say that confused is only one of several emotions I feel at the moment.

My wife and I married three and a half years ago. She had been diagnosed as type one diabetic about six months before, at the time, we'd been together for around 12 years, we had both just turned 30 and decided now was a good [...]

Things are moving on .... not sure to be happy or sad !

kat.webster@tiscali.co.uk — Wed, 05 Nov 2008 01:00:00 +0100

The more sharp eyed amongst you may have noticed that I have not been on the site as much as I was a few weeks ago ..... Consequently there is some catching up to do as far as my blog is concerned so here goes !

After all these months, things now seem to be moving on .... Today I have had a very good telephone consultation with Rachel from the NFLP AND finally reached an agreement with my husband that we are going to start divorce proceedings AND agreed that he will also give media [...]

dont want to be here..

burnhem@btinternet.com — Tue, 04 Nov 2008 01:00:00 +0100

im takin daisys advice ..im blogging..

well it got worse today!

hubby took his name off joint account and has left me with absolutley nothin to live on !

i really didnt think he would do it..he wanted the account to stay joint until house was sold ..was easier he said then at least all bills got paid ! and this was only said on saturday..!

who or what changed his mind ???

he rang me at work today to tell me this ..im soo scared and upset im really thinking [...]

Failure

reem@mahadi.freeserve.co.uk — Mon, 03 Nov 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I've been trying to understand what I am going through

I have failed.

I don't understand what's happening to me.

I am aware that adultery, betrayal and the end of love and end of marriage are all causes of great sadness.

I am not in despair. I know I will be ok. But I also know that this is very hard to get over. If and when I do get over it, the pain will have subsided but I will have lost the energy and the will to love again. It is very [...]

Hi honey I am home...

keithmash@hotmail.co.uk — Sun, 02 Nov 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I have just got back from Albert Heijn, (supermarket) and pick up dinner... for one... and am still trying to make the effort and not fall into 'chicken ding' or pizza mode...

I have just got back into the flat and done the usual.... open the door and shout "Hi honey I am home", I smile to myself as I wait for a response, knowing that it will never come... the strange ways that I find to amuse myself nowadays...

So I start cooking, poached salmon in w [...]

God im so down

Daisyflower40@hotmail.co.uk — Sun, 02 Nov 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Hi Mr Blogman and wiki peeps..

i need to blog, desperate to blog........

im so down its unreal....

some of my friends of wiki know its my birthday this tuesday i will be 41...

last night a year ago exactly we had a black tie bash at our house to celebrate my 40th.....its where it all started to go wrong.....

the woman who my husband had an affair with (and is still with her) came to my bday bash and i saw them dancing together and knew then something was up..

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Sinking III

reem@mahadi.freeserve.co.uk — Thu, 30 Oct 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Once again I find myself blogging sadness and frustration.

Bad day follows bad night follows bad day follows bad night....

This is my 8th week of this - this mood of dread, trepidation, loneliness, sadness, frustration and melancholy. Yes, melancholy (couldn't find a better word!)

ughhhhhhh

This started after the summer break. Before the break, I was so happy, I was glowing. At least once a day someone would comment how I have r [...]

"I wouldn't have done it if I'd been happy would I"

kerrypix@hotmail.com — Tue, 28 Oct 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I don't know how much more I can take. What is wrong with me, why am I being treated like this? Just a few short months ago, everything was fine or so I thought. Now everything is so bad I don't want to carry on because where am I going to end up? I know he is going to come out of this on top I can feel it. I am left to pick up the pieces and expected to go along with everything he says.

Both kids do not want contact with him at the moment and I have tried to convince them that [...]

why oh why???

burnhem@btinternet.com — Fri, 24 Oct 2008 01:00:00 +0100

why oh why ? thats the question im asking myself tonight

today i did a stupid thing ...i rang the o/w again..

why oh why???

tellin her a little white lie about how shes gonna get sols letter citing her in my div case..

why oh why did i do it ???

of course ten mins later i get a nasty call from stbx sayin shes upset !!!!!

AM I NOT ALLOWED TO BE !!!!!!!

later i rang him back to APOLOGISE!!!!! !!!!!

WHY OH WHY ?????

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Still Here!

gioholiday@aol.com — Fri, 24 Oct 2008 01:00:00 +0100

After my dreadful night on Wednesday (thank you to those in chat at 3am!) I got up on Thurday, went into autopilot mode, managed to keep the tears at bay until I'd dropped the kids off at school. Cried all the way into work, and when I got there just couldn't function at all. Phoned up my GP and arranged an appointment, the nurse advised me to come in straight away, as I was so distraught on the phone.

The head was so nice about it, I feel so awful letting them do [...]

Heartbroken

heath.davis@hotmail.co.uk — Thu, 23 Oct 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I've had the worst day ever

I just want to be back in a proper family again, you know the one? The one that includes the biological mother of my children and not a woman who can never be my kids mother, probably with her own kids to whom I can never be their father, nor want to be.

My STBX has moved on, we don't speak, but I know that she has not been entirely happy in her new life, and she has not realised all her 'freedoms' bec [...]